Project Log 1 – Beginnings

Our team choose ‘the idea of trying to reconnect physically or emotionally with others, ourselves or the world as a whole’ as our subject. At the beginning, I didn’t quite understand the theme, so I choose to talk about our theme with Monika and she told me it was really about using sound as a tool to connect with others or the world. Therefore, I finally decided to create a story that resonates with others. It’s really an attempt to make an emotional connection with others.

I spend a long time to choose the topic which I want to create. Finally, I choose the growing up. All of the reason for choosing this topic is coming from last summer which has a special meaning for me. The last summer, is the summer ended earlier than ‘usual’, my friend and I both felt a moment, the moment of growing up. But both of us also felt the same resistance to growing up, from our mind and heart. Last summer my mum and I had a conversation, a deep face to face conversation with a strange beginning. In my mind it was a silent conversation except for my mum’s tears and sobs. It was the first time my mum had cried in front of me, she had always been a strong person in my mind。At that moment, I saw my mom’s vulnerable, suddenly I realized she was a girl just like me. 

At the same night, my friend told me a lot. He said he got a bad new today which from the doctor, said his dad was later-stage hepatoma and his father only can have five years more even take the treatment. so his dad didn’t want to be treated due to he though it is not necessary. He told me at that moment, he realised he should grow up. He also realised that  his parents are all mortal even himself. Growing up probably meant admitting that. He finally told me that his summer had ended early. I think that my summer ended early too.

This is the most reason why I choose ‘growing up’ as my topic, also it is the most unforgettable thing I have experienced in those few years. Growing up and entering a new world. It’s kind of a connection to the world, and kind of related to the theme of the group.

Regarding the structure of the whole work, my initial idea was to create two spaces, a space before growing up, i.e. childhood, and a space after growing up. But I felt that I needed to know more about this topic then I decided to spend a few days talking to my friends about it first.