Project Log 6 – The End

I finished my piece and shared the link to my friends and asked for the feeling.

One of my friends told me that he thought it was a review of someone’s life before died. The feedback was a bit alarming to me at first, as he was getting something different from what I wanted to convey. But when I thought about it, it was a reasonable understanding, ‘there are a thousand Hamlets in a thousand people’s eyes’, after all, this is a sound piece and not a film, so it can’t be conveyed precisely. I should accept this bias. Perhaps the attempt to make an emotional connection with others worked? Because he told me that he could feel the breathlessness at the climax of the piece.

Another friend told me that if she had made the piece, she would have chosen to make the nightmare space more fragmented. But then she added that this might not feel right, after all, the grown-up world doesn’t have to be scary. After that I thought about her words carefully and I tried to ask myself why I hadn’t chosen to make the second space fragmented. Because the grown-up world isn’t actually that scary? Because I wanted the dream to be complete to compensate for my fragmented memories? Because I didn’t realise there was another way to represent it? I can’t think of a reason for not doing this at the moment, so maybe all three of these factors are present. I can only give the reasons why I chose to make it the way I do now, because I can clearly remember what I saw and felt each time I opened my eyes and what happened in between each time when I was caught in a circular dream. Of course, maybe this is what I think is complete, maybe I’m forgetting a lot of things too but I don’t know, so I’ll think it’s complete.